where she would go
if right now
she could be anywhere in the world
then she would tell you
it wouldn't be to a place
but to a person
Tuesday, November 8, 2016
Saturday, November 5, 2016
Princess Behind the Mask
You wore an iron mask
You could not see
What lay underneath
That you did not know
Who you were anymore
You were the woman behind the mask
But you didn't know you were more than that
For the mask told lies
When you looked into the mirror
You saw a stranger's eyes
Staring back at you
Through the holes that allowed you to see
Little did you know, lost one
Not far away rode a warrior king
Whose heart beat for you
You did not yet know he existed
But it's you he wanted
Only you
He always had and always will
He charged for the castle
It didn't matter what it took to free you
And he traded his life for yours
With his dying breath he removed your mask
So you saw the truth
The woman behind the mask
Was, all along, the princess of the kingdom
And when you realized who you were
You took up your sword
You became a warrior
You could not see
What lay underneath
It had been so long
Since you had seen your own faceThat you did not know
Who you were anymore
You were the woman behind the mask
But you didn't know you were more than that
For the mask told lies
When you looked into the mirror
You saw a stranger's eyes
Staring back at you
Through the holes that allowed you to see
Little did you know, lost one
Not far away rode a warrior king
Whose heart beat for you
You did not yet know he existed
But it's you he wanted
Only you
He always had and always will
He charged for the castle
It didn't matter what it took to free you
And he traded his life for yours
With his dying breath he removed your mask
So you saw the truth
The woman behind the mask
Was, all along, the princess of the kingdom
And when you realized who you were
You took up your sword
You became a warrior
Friday, November 4, 2016
Favorite
The stars of the night sky are amazing
Rivers are incredible
And mountains are magnificent
But God did not give it all to draw the stars close
He does not pursue the rivers with furious affection
The mountains are not His fondest delight
But you are
I could hang wishes from every star
But I would rather hang out with you under the stars
I could walk by the river and hear it laughing to itself
But I would rather walk and laugh with you
And I could know the mountains by heart
But I would far, far, rather know you by heart
You are more amazing than the vastest span of night stars
More incredible than the wildest rivers
More magnificent than the highest mountains
You are worth more than all of these things combined
Out of them all
You are His favorite
And you are my favorite, too
Rivers are incredible
And mountains are magnificent
But God did not give it all to draw the stars close
He does not pursue the rivers with furious affection
The mountains are not His fondest delight
But you are
I could hang wishes from every star
But I would rather hang out with you under the stars
I could walk by the river and hear it laughing to itself
But I would rather walk and laugh with you
And I could know the mountains by heart
But I would far, far, rather know you by heart
You are more amazing than the vastest span of night stars
More incredible than the wildest rivers
More magnificent than the highest mountains
You are worth more than all of these things combined
Out of them all
You are His favorite
And you are my favorite, too
Tuesday, November 1, 2016
Invisible Box
She was bound up inside
With walls around her heart
And pressures building slowly
Inside the box she was trapped in
She thought it was normal
She thought that was how she would be forever
But that wasn't how she was meant to be
People compared her to many things
To roses, for she was delicate and beautiful
To a wild horse, for her soul strained against the bonds
To a storm, because she was as unpredictable as a hurricane
But no one told her that
Roses aren't meant to be crushed under foot
Delicate petals are meant to bloom, not die
Mustangs aren't supposed to be confined
They were born to run free in the wind
And storms can't be controlled
The rain can't be bottled up
The lightning can't be stopped from flashing
And thunder can't be tamed
But one night she had a dream
And a voice whispered that she was freer than a wild horse
Braver than a wild rose
And stronger than the storm winds
She woke up
And when she opened her eyes
She found the bonds lying broken around her
She saw the walls shattered and crumbled
The pressure had vanished like a wisp of smoke
And the box she had existed in was invisible
As it had been all along
With walls around her heart
And pressures building slowly
Inside the box she was trapped in
She thought it was normal
She thought that was how she would be forever
But that wasn't how she was meant to be
People compared her to many things
To roses, for she was delicate and beautiful
To a wild horse, for her soul strained against the bonds
To a storm, because she was as unpredictable as a hurricane
But no one told her that
Roses aren't meant to be crushed under foot
Delicate petals are meant to bloom, not die
Mustangs aren't supposed to be confined
They were born to run free in the wind
And storms can't be controlled
The rain can't be bottled up
The lightning can't be stopped from flashing
And thunder can't be tamed
But one night she had a dream
And a voice whispered that she was freer than a wild horse
Braver than a wild rose
And stronger than the storm winds
She woke up
And when she opened her eyes
She found the bonds lying broken around her
She saw the walls shattered and crumbled
The pressure had vanished like a wisp of smoke
And the box she had existed in was invisible
As it had been all along
Saturday, October 1, 2016
Adores You
When the wind rises you run outside
As the clouds fall out of the sky
You spin around and around
Arms outstretched and fingers wide
Head flung back, face to the heavens
You dance in the rain
The thunder is shouting for joy
The sky cries tears of joy
It kisses your face with raindrops
The mist swirls around you
Wrapping you in a hug
The trees sway along
The rushing river sings to you
The lightning flashes to silhouette you
The storm dances with you
You laugh for joy and the Creator of it all
Is laughing with you
The sky's kisses are His to you
The hug of the mist is His hug to you
He dances with you
And the shout of the thunder is His call
It echoes for miles and miles
Until all the creation hears
In the whirlwind:
He absolutely adores you
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Stardust 2
Another stardust poem... xD It's kind of a sequel to my other one: http://unfetteredimaginings.blogspot.com/2016/02/stardust.html
Can stardust be contained forever?
Can you hide it in yourself
Wondering if it will spill out
And dance everywhere?
I have stardust in me yet again
And it begs to sparkle into the night sky
It's trying to escape
It pushes against my ribcage with every breath
And almost lifts me off my feet
I don't want to visit empty planets
Now that I've seen the stars
I'm captivated by stardust
And starlight
I am full of mist and dust
And I want to whisper
And let the stardust float
Out through my eyes
Where the stars are reflected
But I look down and close my eyes
Because you just can't drink starlight
Unless someone hands you a glass and
Pours some into it
I want to reach up into space
To touch the stars
With the tip of my finger
And see if they come falling down to me
But instead I just look at them
Through a borrowed telescope
And I don't tell the stars
That I have stardust in my eyes
If they knew
I wonder
Would they want it back?
Or would they fall in glimmering arcs
And float gently down to earth?
I'm starting to think I fell out of space
Just so I could stare up at night
And see the stars spanning the sky
But all the same
Whenever I gaze at the stars
They're too amazing to comprehend
I could never find my way among them all
Even if I had a thousand years
And looking up I know I am hopelessly lost
Can stardust be contained forever?
Can you hide it in yourself
Wondering if it will spill out
And dance everywhere?
I have stardust in me yet again
And it begs to sparkle into the night sky
It's trying to escape
It pushes against my ribcage with every breath
And almost lifts me off my feet
I don't want to visit empty planets
Now that I've seen the stars
I'm captivated by stardust
And starlight
I am full of mist and dust
And I want to whisper
And let the stardust float
Out through my eyes
Where the stars are reflected
But I look down and close my eyes
Because you just can't drink starlight
Unless someone hands you a glass and
Pours some into it
I want to reach up into space
To touch the stars
With the tip of my finger
And see if they come falling down to me
But instead I just look at them
Through a borrowed telescope
And I don't tell the stars
That I have stardust in my eyes
If they knew
I wonder
Would they want it back?
Or would they fall in glimmering arcs
And float gently down to earth?
I'm starting to think I fell out of space
Just so I could stare up at night
And see the stars spanning the sky
But all the same
Whenever I gaze at the stars
They're too amazing to comprehend
I could never find my way among them all
Even if I had a thousand years
And looking up I know I am hopelessly lost
Wednesday, September 7, 2016
Writing Yours
In the dark of night
When the wind was high
You felt like you were drowning...
Not in floods of water
But floods of confusion
And hurt
I heard you whispering, why
Wondering, why
Did I even try?
Oh don't fall
Don't fall apart
You're not cracked glass
You're not a shattered mirror
You're not a broken vase
No
You are whole
If you look at yourself
Through fractured sunglasses
Of course you'll think you're cracked
Rip them off
Throw them out the window
I can't tell you yet
Everything I am writing
On your pages
But I will tell you this
I don't write stories that don't have
Happy endings
Don't cry
Your story is not over yet
I haven't written the ending yet
Things aren't falling to pieces
No, things are falling together
Up is down and down is up
I know your destiny
I promise you'll get your gravity back
Just wait a little while
When the new day dawns
You will open your eyes
And read the next chapter
Of the story I am writing
You're not drowning in the night
No, you are rising
Above the fog and
You see what I have written
For you
And it's better
Than you ever imagined
Fly eagle, glide and soar
Your strength is new again
Because I'm writing your destiny
And I promise you...
It's epic
It's magnificent
And as you lift above the mist
You see clearly
And realize that at long last
Dreams have collided with reality
And with each day that stretches
Into the unknown
You'll see quite vividly
With breathless wonder
The strokes of my pen
Fairytales do come true
And I am writing yours
When the wind was high
You felt like you were drowning...
Not in floods of water
But floods of confusion
And hurt
I heard you whispering, why
Wondering, why
Did I even try?
Oh don't fall
Don't fall apart
You're not cracked glass
You're not a shattered mirror
You're not a broken vase
No
You are whole
If you look at yourself
Through fractured sunglasses
Of course you'll think you're cracked
Rip them off
Throw them out the window
I can't tell you yet
Everything I am writing
On your pages
But I will tell you this
I don't write stories
That end in spilled inkI don't write stories that don't have
Happy endings
Don't cry
Your story is not over yet
I haven't written the ending yet
Things aren't falling to pieces
No, things are falling together
Up is down and down is up
I know your destiny
I promise you'll get your gravity back
Just wait a little while
When the new day dawns
You will open your eyes
And read the next chapter
Of the story I am writing
You're not drowning in the night
No, you are rising
Above the fog and
You see what I have written
For you
And it's better
Than you ever imagined
Fly eagle, glide and soar
Your strength is new again
So rise into the fiery dawn
Into the sunBecause I'm writing your destiny
And I promise you...
It's epic
It's magnificent
And as you lift above the mist
You see clearly
And realize that at long last
Dreams have collided with reality
And with each day that stretches
Into the unknown
You'll see quite vividly
With breathless wonder
The strokes of my pen
Fairytales do come true
And I am writing yours
Monday, September 5, 2016
Amadeus et Barloc
An allegory of Mark 5:1-20
Once
there was a lonely place, out in the wilderness. The rocky
mountainside was scarred with caverns and tombs. Inside were written
thousands of inscriptions, written in blood and scraped into the rock
with the end of a broken chain.
The
people of the village at the foot of the mountain locked their doors
at night and kept their children close. For in the place of the dead
was a Beast that wandered among the tombs. Everyone knew of it. Some
of the bravest men of the village had many times gone up on the
mountain in the dark of night, bearing flaming torches and carrying
swords, spears, and chains.
They
had backed the Beast into a corner and flung the chains around it.
But every time it had broken them all with one wrench of its beastly
shoulders and chased them, foaming at the mouth, down the
mountainside. Then it ran back up into the hills and into the tombs
and howled with screams that sounded like someone in agony.
No
one dared go near the creature. Everyone loathed it.
But
no one saw the tears that ran dark from the corners of the Beast’s
sunken eyes. No one felt the agony that dug into its heart with cruel
claws. No one felt the pressure building within its skull, the clutch
of something that squeezed its mind until it went frantic, bashing
its head against the stones and tearing its fur. It lurched deeper into
the caverns. Through the night it did not cease to pace and howl in
agony.
It
stumbled out into the moonlight, clutching its head. It couldn’t
think. It had no control over its own mind. It was, as far as it
knew, only a beast. It rushed to the cliff’s edge and threw itself
into the sea, not knowing what it was doing. It only had a dim sense,
somewhere in a distant, barely functioning part of its animal
brain, that it wanted to die.
But
when the Beast splashed into the sea, the waters did not embrace it,
but the waves flung it back up on the beach. It could not die the
death that would free it from the horror.
The
Beast did not know who it was. It did not know where it came from. It
only knew that it was despicable, a beast, an animal, and it hated
itself with a hatred so fierce it made its head throb. The Beast’s
claws began to twitch. It stared at its paws and clenched them, but
an urge began to build in it, the urge to maim the horrid thing that
it was. The Beast’s body went rigid. It opened its fanged mouth and
screamed, clenching its fists harder and harder, but it could not
withstand the compulsive urge.
Of
a sudden, the Beast flung open its claws and began to slash and tear
at its body, the sharp curved claws making the outside of him look
like the inside of him felt. The Beast’s screams were despairing
and when it was over it climbed the hill and vanished into the tombs,
the broken chains rattling behind it. It grasped a broken end and
scraped at the walls, trying to write how it felt, but it could not
form words. Tears of pain and despair welled in its deadened eyes. It
roared and fell to the floor.
This
was the hell the Beast had lived in for years. Every day was the
same. There seemed to be no hope.
The
Beast lay in a semi-conscious state off and on through the night.
Morning dawned; through its dull vision there seemed to be a
lightening of the darkness. It stumbled to the entrance of the tomb
and stared out. The Beast’s vision was dim and blurry. It could not
see beauty, but only darkness and ugliness. The flowers and plants
looked like hideous caricatures and there was no beauty in the rocks
around it. It only saw instruments of torture. And to it, the air
smelled of rottenness and death.
There
was a boat coming in to the harbor. The Beast only noticed it because
it seemed to glow like nothing else, piercing the dark fog it lived
in. It peered closer. A figure stepped from the boat. The Beast knew
at once who this was.
The
King.
The
Beast’s giant body began to shake and shudder as animal fear filled
it at the sight. It had never seen anyone like this. A sense of a
power came rushing over it, a power the Beast’s wild and deranged
strength could not even come close to. Everything in it wanted to run
blindly and never stop, but its fear was too great. Somehow the Beast
knew it could not escape. Shaking, it rushed down the slope toward
the figures.
The
Beast did not even look at the others, dim in its vision as they
shrank back behind the glowing one. It hurled itself to the ground,
roaring in fear in a guttural voice, “What have I done, O King? I
beg you, do not torture me!” The creature writhed in fear and
torment.
It
sensed the King kneeling slowly beside it; the Beast heard the rustle
of fabric. Its head jerked up. The sunken eyes stared into warm eyes
filled with tears. “Oh my son,” the King said softly. “What is
your name?”
“I
am the Beast. I am nothing but a beast,” it spat in self-loathing.
It lifted its claws to tear at itself, but the King grasped both paws
in strong hands and lifted the Beast to its feet. It could not tear
its gaze away from the King’s eyes. The King looked at it like no
one ever had. It did not understand this look. It was as foreign to
the Beast as sanity.
The
King’s gentle hand touched the Beast’s scarred and bloodied head.
The Beast closed its eyes and trembled. “You are not the Beast,”
the King said in a voice of power. “Your name is Amadeus, the
love of God, for
you are the love of God. And you will become a warrior of hope
to many.”
And
as the King spoke, the Beast’s body began to divide.
It
was as if the body of a man, scarred and hairy, emerged from the
empty shell of the Beast’s body. Hair began to regrow on the man,
Amadeus’s, head, even as the hair on the rest of his body began to
fall out and his limbs began to change in size and shape to that of a
man.
The
body of the Beast fell to the ground, weak and shriveled looking, as
Amadeus took shape. The Beast’s voice was empty and hollow with
terror, “Please don’t send me away! Let me devour those pigs over
there, I beg you.”
The
King looked at the massive group of pigs rooting in the dirt at the
top of the cliff. “Go,” he said.
The
Beast rose and then it went roaring and howling down the hill into
the herd of pigs, its claws outstretched. The pigs began to squeal
in terror, and went rushing down the hill in a violent stampede and
plunged off the cliff and hurtled into the sea. A mighty wave curled
over them and washed them all under, including the Beast.
The
herders who had been caring for the pigs gaped, stared in wordless
amazement and fear, then turned and ran as fast as they could down
the hill into the village, shouting at the tops of their voices.
Amadeus
stared, weak and shaken. Even though his body was now no longer
hidden within the Beast’s body, the horrendous scars still twisted over his body and his eyes were still dull and unfocussed. He lost his
balance and began to fall.
But
the King caught him in his arms and held him close, cradling
Amadeus’s head against his chest, rocking him back and forth.
Amadeus was rigid and stiff but he did not pull away.
The
King bent his head near Amadeus’s ear and began to whisper to him,
words, strange words he did not understand at first, but as the King
continued to speak, the words gradually began to possess meaning to
him. They were words of comfort, words of love, words of acceptance. Compassion such as he had never known. The King's words, his loving embrace, pierced straight into Amadeus's heart, into his very soul.
He
began, not to howl, but to cry, his voice a man’s voice, breaking.
His cries turned into shaking sobs. The King held him closer,
whispering his name, “Amadeus, Amadeus.”
Something
changed inside Amadeus. It was as if his heart burst open and
something like a soothing river flowed through, washing away all the
hurt and agony that had chained him for so many years. His eyes
cleared—and widened.
All
around him, the world seemed to burst into rainbows of color, of
beauty. The caricatures of ugliness turned into wild roses, covering the mountainside in explosions of pink and red and yellow. He
suddenly realized that the air was not foul-smelling, but filled with
the scent of roses and spring grasses. He heard the calling of the
seagulls and the twittering of tiny birds. The sun broke over the top
of the mountain and rays of light flooded everywhere. His eyes were
dazzled by the beauty. His senses were quivering with the smells and
sensations. So this was what living was like. And suddenly he
remembered what his life had been like, before all the pain had
entered it.
His
tears were tears of relief, tears of unbound joy. He threw his head
back and began to laugh even as he cried. Suddenly he threw his arms
around the King and put his head on his shoulder. “Thank you, thank
you, thank you.”
The
King looked into his eyes, smiling. “You are free, beloved.”
Amadeus
looked down at his body. Every scar had vanished.
The
King’s friends brought new, clean clothes, and Amadeus put them on.
He sat at the King’s feet and the King laid his hand on his
shoulder and talked to him for a long while, speaking of many things
that made Amadeus feel like his heart would burst anew. His heart was
pounding with the wonder of it all. For the first time in his life,
he felt truly, really, loved. He had never known what it felt like.
The
people from the village came flocking up the hill, open-mouthed,
gaping, frightened of the powerful thing that had happened here
today. They stood warily at a safe distance and begged the King to
leave, before he drove off their cows as well.
The
King stood, helping Amadeus up. “I will go.”
Amadeus
gripped his hand. He did not want to be parted from the King, ever.
He did not want to leave the one who had given him back his life, who
in a few moments had made him feel more alive than he had ever felt.
“Please let me go with you,” he begged.
The
King placed both hands on Amadeus’s shoulders. “No, dear one. Go
home, to your friends and family. They are waiting for you. Go and
tell them what has happened to you, of the love that has been shown
you.”
Amadeus
nodded. In truth, he longed to do so. “I will,” he said. He
wanted to jump and run and shout to the entire world what had
happened to him.
The
King hugged him tightly, and then let him go.
Amadeus,
a new man, turned and went. He was not a beast, he had never been a
beast. He was the love of God. There was an unmistakable
bounce in his step. At the crest of the hill, he paused and looked
back, the rays of the rising sun silhouetting him in brilliance. His
face was wreathed in smiles, as was the King’s. Amadeus lifted his
hand in a wave, then stepped over the top of the hill, vanishing into
the bright radiance of the sun.
In
the weeks that followed, he told nearly everyone in the surrounding
areas his whole story. “He looked at the Beast,” Amadeus said, in
a voice trembling with joy and wonder, “and saw not the Beast! He
saw me, Amadeus, within.”
People
were amazed, in awe. They had all heard the stories of the Beast, but
now the Beast was no more. In its place was a man so alive, so filled
with joy and passion that if they had not seen him in his past state,
they would not have believed him to be the same person.
He
became known as Amadeus et
Barloc, Barloc
meaning
“strong warrior filled with love and hope”. And
wherever he went, he infused people with the love
and hope that flowed
uncontrollably from him like an overflowing river.
Sunday, August 28, 2016
Storm of Your Love
When I'm feeling trapped
Let Your love burn through
The fear
Dry my tears
I know I am not this
This is not me
Remind me I am not afraid
Remind me I am Yours
Forever and ever
Love, just love
Is what sets me free
Besiege the castle
Send the walls crashing down
Down down down
Out of the dust and the ashes
I will rise a soldier
For Your kingdom
Wrap me in Your arms of love
You swoop down
When I cry out to You
The earth shakes
Whe foundations of the sea
Are laid raw and bare
In a fury, in the rage of
The storm of Your love
Sunday, August 14, 2016
Caught in the Lyrics
This song is not trapped in my head
no
I am trapped inside the song
it
holds me captive at midnight
and
still won’t let me go at dawn
I
love the tune
I
adore the lines
I’ve
watched the music video
a
hundred and three times
words
trickle through my mind
The song is mine as I
hum all day
until night the song belongs to me
but
after sunset
I
belong to the song
I’m
a prisoner to the enchanting melody
as
it twines through my restless mind
I’m
held captive by trailing strands of
frayed
lyrics
My
sighs match the beat
as
the night drags on
I
can’t sleep
I
memorize all but the the last two lines
in
the long hours before dawn
I
am caught in the lyrics
and
when I finally fall asleep
my dreams whisper-sing
with the captivating inflection
of
the unrelenting tune
Saturday, August 13, 2016
Touching Air
You're under the deep
In the depths of the sea
Jellyfish touch your tail
Unstung you float through the seaweed
Mermaid hair flows
Around your shoulders
And you fade through empty wrecks
Of ancient ships
Saltwater skin
Seawater lungs
Fingers try to catch the bubbles
The sun wavers through the water
You try to reach the surface
But shadows push you down again
The sailboats glide over your head
You fade deeper
Pushing water like we
Push againsnt the wind
Lonliness lives deep inside you
Heartbeat pulsing, longing
For what lies above the sea
You watch the shadow of a shark glide
Flicker past your underwater cave
Glimmer shimmer glide and sway
The ocean clings to you like a cape
But you shake starfish out of your hair
One trembling finger breaks the surface
Sea-blue eyes widen as
For the first time, you touch...
Air
In the depths of the sea
Jellyfish touch your tail
Unstung you float through the seaweed
Mermaid hair flows
Around your shoulders
And you fade through empty wrecks
Of ancient ships
Saltwater skin
Seawater lungs
Fingers try to catch the bubbles
The sun wavers through the water
You try to reach the surface
But shadows push you down again
The sailboats glide over your head
You fade deeper
Pushing water like we
Push againsnt the wind
Lonliness lives deep inside you
Heartbeat pulsing, longing
For what lies above the sea
You watch the shadow of a shark glide
Flicker past your underwater cave
Glimmer shimmer glide and sway
The ocean clings to you like a cape
But you shake starfish out of your hair
One trembling finger breaks the surface
Sea-blue eyes widen as
For the first time, you touch...
Air
Friday, August 12, 2016
Metal-Plated Dreams
Purple peanut butter jellyfish chase
Chocolate-covered lima beans
And tree frogs dance on a furry stage
While cactus unicorns
Run from lifelike artichoke
If you plunge into a lemon-flavored
Sea of grass
Don't try to catch
The eagle-feathered fish
Ostrich juice flows through valleys
Of summer wintertime
Careful, don't dip your toes in
'Cause rivers have high fevers
Ostrich juice flows through valleys
Of summer wintertime
Careful, don't dip your toes in
'Cause rivers have high fevers
I wear a fizzy cape as I rescue
Baby army ants
From a deadly battle
Against exotic coffee cups
I know this makes no sense
But trust me because I know this:
Wrought-iron badgers
Sometimes come alive at night
Before you fall asleep tonight
Buckle on your gold-detecting socks
Because if you're not careful you may
Catch a metal-plated virus
The dreams you'll have are quite bizarre
You'll fly with backpack wings
To a land of strangest things
Don't ask me why
You'll understand it all
Once you've heard the liquid band
Strum songs on old
Crayon-stringed guitars
When I crash land in reality once more
I'll make sure to let you know
But until then I'll wander through
The cotton candy-cane hallways
Of metal-plated dreams
Saturday, July 23, 2016
By Heart
You are the One who
knows
everything about me
You are the One who
truly
sees me as I was
meant to be
You give me breath
You are the air I
breathe
I was the princess
trapped in the
tower
You were the knight
who fought
and died
to free me
And lived again so I
could
know You
You know me like no
one else
You know every
thread
of the fabric of my
soul
You have me
memorized
every detail
You feel every beat
of my heart
You gently hold me
in Your hand
and You know me
by heart
No one else’s eyes
have ever
looked into mine
the way Yours do
everlasting
tenderness
Your smile never
fades
There’s not a
thing I could
ever hide from You
and not a thing I
would
ever want to
You know me by heart
and You want
for me to know You
by heart too
I want to know You
by heart
I want to know Your
heart
to the depths
that You know mine
I hear You calling
me in the night
our hearts are
meeting
I run to You
You hold me close
I want to see You
I want to know You,
I want to know You
By heart
Friday, July 22, 2016
Worth Everything
When she was little
she wore pink sparkly dresses
and sang at the top of her lungs
and danced
and hoped someone would notice.
But no one did.
No one watched her twirl
No one smiled and swooped her up
And told her she was a princess
told her she was daddy’s little girl
told her how beautiful she was.
No one showed her every day
how much she was worth
how precious she was
and she didn’t feel like daddy’s little girl.
When she got older
she stopped singing
she stopped wearing sparkly dresses
instead she wore makeup.
She stopped hoping she’d be daddy’s girl.
She couldn’t hide her confusion
behind a mask of foundation.
Her eyeliner didn’t keep anyone from seeing
the pain lingering in her eyes.
She still didn’t feel beautiful
when she looked in the mirror
she saw brokenness, not beauty.
She didn’t know how valuable she was
and she went after all the boys
because she was desperate
to know she mattered to someone
to anyone
but they didn’t know her worth either
or their own.
They needed her to be what they needed
something she could never be
and they could never be what she needed either
so one by one they broke her heart.
If you looked hard enough
you’d see the shattered pieces
reflected in her gaze
And she still didn’t know
she was beautiful.
If you tell her she is lovely
she will give you that sad smile
and say nothing
but her eyes give her away.
She doesn’t believe you
because you are only one positive voice
that doesn’t stand against the tide
of negative voices
that have lied her whole life
and crushed her soul.
She’s an empty shell
needing something to fill her
but she can’t find it anywhere.
She comes home nights
and cries
until she finally falls asleep.
She wishes she could
change herself
to be valuable
and beautiful.
Little does she know
she already is
that she is worth
everything.
Friday, July 15, 2016
What You Want
I
wasn’t even looking
But
now I see a jewel
Right
here in front of me
Shining
like a star
Among
all the other stones
This
one stands out so brightly
Everything
I’d
hoped for
someday
Right
here before my eyes
But
I whisper a prayer
Father
my heart is in chaos
And
I want to keep this one
But
I want what You want
Your
will not mine
Even
though my heart longs
Sometimes
the tears fall
I
know You’re holding me tight
Nothing
else compares at all
I
put You first and wait
For
what You’ll reveal in time
Even
though my heart hopes
Father Yours are amazing plans
Whatever
my future holds
I
will trust Your love
Maybe
my hope is Your plan
But
no
matter what I trust You
Even
though sometimes I’m afraid
I
know You hold my heart in your palms
And
I want what You want
I
want Your good plans
Whatever they are
Tuesday, July 12, 2016
Winter's Banishment
Winter crouches over our now barren land
The great trees are weighed with snow
The world is frozen in time
Life's ebb and flow has grown feeble
The clouds swirl over the horizion
As if trying to make up their mind
Whether they should stay
Or leave this empty place
Where nothing lives anymore
The stars are far away specks
The moon is hidden in the night's depths
Snowflakes float and touch the ice
But the seeming peace is deceptive
At first the frozen tensions are not apparent
At first it is impossible to know that our hearts
Are trying to come back to life
Winter has frozen everything
But then you see how the shining ice creaks and cracks
Crying to be released
And under the glittering snow the trees groan
And bend until they almost snap
Begging to be unburdoned
The wind sings high notes around the mountains
But it is sobbing
Let the winter be over
Bring the dawn of freedom
From the ice that holds us captive
Melt the winter away
The night lingers long
But morning comes
Like a ghost at first, creeping near in paleness
Then the windsong changes to joyful chimes
And then the sunlight bursts forth, parting the clouds
The glorious sun rides the wind
Pink and gold glow into the entire land
The snow begins to melt
Sliding from the trees
They stand upright, reaching for the sunlight
The ice slowly turns liquid
Until the water ripples clear and blue
And the wind loses its bite
Warm and soft, it ruffles the grass and waves the leaves
The mountains seem to smile
Birds sing in chorus from the forest
Life that was once frozen under winter's iron hand
Has been released
Winter has been banished forever
And every single heart now beats strong again
The great trees are weighed with snow
The world is frozen in time
Life's ebb and flow has grown feeble
The clouds swirl over the horizion
As if trying to make up their mind
Whether they should stay
Or leave this empty place
Where nothing lives anymore
The stars are far away specks
The moon is hidden in the night's depths
Snowflakes float and touch the ice
But the seeming peace is deceptive
At first the frozen tensions are not apparent
At first it is impossible to know that our hearts
Are trying to come back to life
Winter has frozen everything
But then you see how the shining ice creaks and cracks
Crying to be released
And under the glittering snow the trees groan
And bend until they almost snap
Begging to be unburdoned
The wind sings high notes around the mountains
But it is sobbing
Let the winter be over
Bring the dawn of freedom
From the ice that holds us captive
Melt the winter away
The night lingers long
But morning comes
Like a ghost at first, creeping near in paleness
Then the windsong changes to joyful chimes
And then the sunlight bursts forth, parting the clouds
The glorious sun rides the wind
Pink and gold glow into the entire land
The snow begins to melt
Sliding from the trees
They stand upright, reaching for the sunlight
The ice slowly turns liquid
Until the water ripples clear and blue
And the wind loses its bite
Warm and soft, it ruffles the grass and waves the leaves
The mountains seem to smile
Birds sing in chorus from the forest
Life that was once frozen under winter's iron hand
Has been released
Winter has been banished forever
And every single heart now beats strong again
Sunday, June 12, 2016
I See
I see your upturned gaze
Eyes dry, no tears
But I feel your pain
And I cry the tears
The ones you do not shed
When you think I am looking
I see your smile
Hear your laugh
It's like a shield
But I know you
I know what is behind
Your armor
I have hidden the same scars
That you hide
I hear your voice
Steady and unwavering
But I hear my own voice
Tremor and break
In your place
The way your voice does
When you pray alone
Little do you know
I see it all
I feel it all
Every stab you take
Every shot that drops you
Each one has wounded me too
Everything that hurts you
Hurts me
I would give anything
To see you whole again
I cannot save you
But let me show you
Someone who sees everything
Someone who has caught
All those tears you shed in secret
Someone who will wipe them all away
Eyes dry, no tears
But I feel your pain
And I cry the tears
The ones you do not shed
When you think I am looking
I see your smile
Hear your laugh
It's like a shield
But I know you
I know what is behind
Your armor
I have hidden the same scars
That you hide
I hear your voice
Steady and unwavering
But I hear my own voice
Tremor and break
In your place
The way your voice does
When you pray alone
Little do you know
I see it all
I feel it all
Every stab you take
Every shot that drops you
Each one has wounded me too
Everything that hurts you
Hurts me
I would give anything
To see you whole again
I cannot save you
But let me show you
Someone who sees everything
Someone who has caught
All those tears you shed in secret
Someone who will wipe them all away
Thursday, May 19, 2016
Moonburned
I stood at my window
Looked out, out across the water tonight
As I have done
For so many nights
Ripples across the deep, fireflies
A million little glowing lights
The moon drifts through the clouds
Like a ship of the starry sky
Something draws me
So even though I'm scared of the dark
I open my window and
Climb outside
Into the moonlit night
Walk down to the water's edge
I watch the moon break through the wisps
Glowing, glowing bright
White light
Is moonburn possible?
Because I think I
Got moonburned tonight
Moonburn isn't like
A sunburn
It's like being wonderstruck
Awestruck
It's like waking up
For the first time ever
I'm so enthralled by
The moonlight
What happened to the dark?
It is gone
In the wink of a firefly
In the soft night wind
In the moon's glow
Tell me why this happened
Tell me how
Who knew moonlight could do this
To me
Who knew
Moonlight
Such gentle light
Could shine so bright
And light up the night sky
And the whole world glows
Like never before
I hope the moon never goes down
I hope the glow never fades
I hope the stars don't blink out
I hope the fireflies never go out
Or fly away
I hope I can stay here
I just want to stay
Moonburned
Forever
Monday, May 9, 2016
The Dreams of Tex
Just something silly I wrote several years ago and discovered again!
Behold, every night Tex dreamed that he was Joseph. And his brother Daniel threw him in the lion’s den. He then got Nebuchadnezzar to get him out. Thereafter he slayed Goliath by heaping hot coals of fire on his head. Thereafter, thereafter, he sashayed down the road and met King Saul. King Saul hurled a spear at him, so Tex built an alter and poured water on it. Then fire burned down from heaven and devoured a golden calf. He took the Ten Commandments down from Mount Sinai and sealed the ark with them. He led two of every kind of animal to the river and watched Naman get healed. After that King Herod flung him into a fiery furnace and Tex emerged with Haman and Queen Esther. He sliced a piece off of King Ahasuerus's robe when the king went into a cave.
Finally he crossed the Red Sea by walking on the water and climbed back into the ark. He floated onto the lake of Galilee and took a coin out of a fishes mouth. He ate two fishes and with a ravenous appetite he demolished many sandwiches for lunch and when he picked up the leftovers he had twelve baskets. He saw a tree wither up, and he ate a mustard seed off it. Then he saw a ghost on the lake and walked on water again. He fell asleep in the boat and a storm woke him up. He walked back to shore and prayed, then he took a bath in a bubbling pool. He met a Roman soldier and carried his pack for two miles.
He caught fish in a net on one side of the boat, then he was told to put it on the other side and he would catch more fish, so he did, but then the net sank because it had little faith. He went to find a large crowd of people and threw queen Jezebel out a window onto a mat. She picked up her mat and carried it. She went down the road with her donkey and thieves came out of the rocks to beat her up. But the Good Samaritan paid them money to take care of her at the inn. Tex married an old woman who was 99 and three angels came and told him his nephew would get burned up in sulfur raining down from above. Tex had a son and he put him on an alter.
But then a ram came out and butted him. But then it turned into gold and sp he ground it up and made people drink it. He knew he would never get to the promised land, so he went to Sodom and saw someone get turned into a pillar of salt. So he grew his hair long and used all his strength to push the pillar down. A faux fox named Delilah cut his hair off and he tied a torch to its tail and burned down the Philistine's fields. Then Tex took off his cloak and whipped the water furiously. A chariot of fire came up and called him an old bald-head, but bears came out of the woods and ate it all up.
He did not like to be called that because he was not old, wherefore, he went to a cave and took hay out of the manger to put on his head, and the baby inside started crying so he went outside and found a large star in the sky and gave it to the baby as a gift. Along the way, he met some wise men guarding sheep.
Then he went and got baptized in the Nile by John the Baptist, but the Pharisees were angry at him and sent soldiers to kill every baby boy under two years old. So he went down to Egypt to escape and turned the water into blood and ate frogs. The Pharaoh was really upset then so Tex gave him some grasshoppers for lunch. The Pharaoh told him to made bricks, and gather straw, but Tex climbed a pyramid and brought down five smooth stones. He helped the children of Israel gather manna, and then he threw a huge party and refused to give any to David and his men. Because he was so horrid his wife Abigail gave his food to David.
THE END
Behold, every night Tex dreamed that he was Joseph. And his brother Daniel threw him in the lion’s den. He then got Nebuchadnezzar to get him out. Thereafter he slayed Goliath by heaping hot coals of fire on his head. Thereafter, thereafter, he sashayed down the road and met King Saul. King Saul hurled a spear at him, so Tex built an alter and poured water on it. Then fire burned down from heaven and devoured a golden calf. He took the Ten Commandments down from Mount Sinai and sealed the ark with them. He led two of every kind of animal to the river and watched Naman get healed. After that King Herod flung him into a fiery furnace and Tex emerged with Haman and Queen Esther. He sliced a piece off of King Ahasuerus's robe when the king went into a cave.
Finally he crossed the Red Sea by walking on the water and climbed back into the ark. He floated onto the lake of Galilee and took a coin out of a fishes mouth. He ate two fishes and with a ravenous appetite he demolished many sandwiches for lunch and when he picked up the leftovers he had twelve baskets. He saw a tree wither up, and he ate a mustard seed off it. Then he saw a ghost on the lake and walked on water again. He fell asleep in the boat and a storm woke him up. He walked back to shore and prayed, then he took a bath in a bubbling pool. He met a Roman soldier and carried his pack for two miles.
He caught fish in a net on one side of the boat, then he was told to put it on the other side and he would catch more fish, so he did, but then the net sank because it had little faith. He went to find a large crowd of people and threw queen Jezebel out a window onto a mat. She picked up her mat and carried it. She went down the road with her donkey and thieves came out of the rocks to beat her up. But the Good Samaritan paid them money to take care of her at the inn. Tex married an old woman who was 99 and three angels came and told him his nephew would get burned up in sulfur raining down from above. Tex had a son and he put him on an alter.
But then a ram came out and butted him. But then it turned into gold and sp he ground it up and made people drink it. He knew he would never get to the promised land, so he went to Sodom and saw someone get turned into a pillar of salt. So he grew his hair long and used all his strength to push the pillar down. A faux fox named Delilah cut his hair off and he tied a torch to its tail and burned down the Philistine's fields. Then Tex took off his cloak and whipped the water furiously. A chariot of fire came up and called him an old bald-head, but bears came out of the woods and ate it all up.
He did not like to be called that because he was not old, wherefore, he went to a cave and took hay out of the manger to put on his head, and the baby inside started crying so he went outside and found a large star in the sky and gave it to the baby as a gift. Along the way, he met some wise men guarding sheep.
Then he went and got baptized in the Nile by John the Baptist, but the Pharisees were angry at him and sent soldiers to kill every baby boy under two years old. So he went down to Egypt to escape and turned the water into blood and ate frogs. The Pharaoh was really upset then so Tex gave him some grasshoppers for lunch. The Pharaoh told him to made bricks, and gather straw, but Tex climbed a pyramid and brought down five smooth stones. He helped the children of Israel gather manna, and then he threw a huge party and refused to give any to David and his men. Because he was so horrid his wife Abigail gave his food to David.
THE END
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