Inside Her Heart

Something's missing

Something's wrong

Something's gone

She looks into the past

And it's all the same

She's afraid to look into the future

She's terrified it will be more of the same

She has armor five feet thick

Walls ten feet high

She's slowly dying inside

And no one seems to see

Cause she hides her tears at night

But her eyes are haunted with longing

And her heart is missing chunks

She stopped searching two years ago

When her last hope was finally crushed

By a boy who didn't even know her middle name

Much less how incredible she is

She doesn't know it either

Maybe she seems okay on the outside

She says, “I'm fine” when she's breaking inside

But under that baggy sweater thats almost as blue as her eyes

The cuts on her heart show up on her skin

They've said, “I love you” so many times

And “You're beautiful”

Before they turned around and cut her heart

She doesn't believe the words anymore

Because that's all they are now, just words

She wants the truth

She wants something real

She needs someone to hold her

Someone who won't let go

Someone who isn't afraid of the battles warring inside her

Someone who doesn't just see the scars on her heart and skin

But sees the beauty that she doesn't know she is

Someone who will prove it to her until she believes it

Someone who will protect her

Who looks at her like the jewel she is

She's been looking for him in all the wrong places

She knew him once but life coiled around her

And pulled her away

But he's been waiting this whole time

He would wait forever for her

He keeps calling her name

He's so in love with her

She doesn't see the tears in his eyes

When he sees the hurt in her that no one else does

She doesn't know his arms ache to hold her close

She forgot that he gave his own life

In exchange for hers

So she could breathe and live and love

But she forgot what it felt like

The first time she fell in love with him

There's a happily ever after waiting for her

Just around the corner

All she has to do is look inside her heart

He's already there

Sunbeam

In a dusty corner
through the cobwebs
you see a sunbeam
making the dust shimmer
you reach for it

And when you look up
the sky is crying
what you thought were snowflakes
are actually frozen tears
outside your window
today's more gray than bright blue

But you find that when you
hold a sunbeam in your hands
it looks like hope
for everyone who is covered
in those frozen tears

So you open your fingers
let the sunlight spill out
like liquid gold
and you watch
as the frozen tears
start to melt away

if you asked her

where she would go 
if right now
she could be anywhere in the world
then she would tell you
it wouldn't be to a place
but to a person

Princess Behind the Mask

You wore an iron mask
You could not see
What lay underneath

It had been so long

Since you had seen your own face
That you did not know
Who you were anymore

You were the woman behind the mask
But you didn't know you were more than that
For the mask told lies

When you looked into the mirror
You saw a stranger's eyes
Staring back at you
Through the holes that allowed you to see

Little did you know, lost one
Not far away rode a warrior king
Whose heart beat for you
You did not yet know he existed

But it's you he wanted
Only you
He always had and always will

He charged for the castle
It didn't matter what it took to free you
And he traded his life for yours
With his dying breath he removed your mask
So you saw the truth

The woman behind the mask 
Was, all along, the princess of the kingdom
And when you realized who you were
You took up your sword

You became a warrior 

Favorite

The stars of the night sky are amazing
Rivers are incredible
And mountains are magnificent

But God did not give it all to draw the stars close
He does not pursue the rivers with furious affection
The mountains are not His fondest delight
But you are

I could hang wishes from every star
But I would rather hang out with you under the stars

I could walk by the river and hear it laughing to itself
But I would rather walk and laugh with you

And I could know the mountains by heart
But I would far, far, rather know you by heart

You are more amazing than the vastest span of night stars
More incredible than the wildest rivers
More magnificent than the highest mountains
You are worth more than all of these things combined

Out of them all
You are His favorite
And you are my favorite, too

Invisible Box

She was bound up inside
With walls around her heart
And pressures building slowly
Inside the box she was trapped in

She thought it was normal
She thought that was how she would be forever
But that wasn't how she was meant to be

People compared her to many things
To roses, for she was delicate and beautiful
To a wild horse, for her soul strained against the bonds
To a storm, because she was as unpredictable as a hurricane

But no one told her that
Roses aren't meant to be crushed under foot
Delicate petals are meant to bloom, not die

Mustangs aren't supposed to be confined
They were born to run free in the wind

And storms can't be controlled
The rain can't be bottled up
The lightning can't be stopped from flashing
And thunder can't be tamed

But one night she had a dream
And a voice whispered that she was freer than a wild horse
Braver than a wild rose
And stronger than the storm winds

She woke up 
And when she opened her eyes
She found the bonds lying broken around her
She saw the walls shattered and crumbled
The pressure had vanished like a wisp of smoke
And the box she had existed in was invisible

As it had been all along

Adores You

When the wind rises you run outside

As the clouds fall out of the sky

You spin around and around

Arms outstretched and fingers wide

Head flung back, face to the heavens

You dance in the rain

The thunder is shouting for joy

The sky cries tears of joy

It kisses your face with raindrops

The mist swirls around you

Wrapping you in a hug 

The trees sway along

The rushing river sings to you

The lightning flashes to silhouette you

The storm dances with you

You laugh for joy and the Creator of it all

Is laughing with you

The sky's kisses are His to you

The hug of the mist is His hug to you

He dances with you

And the shout of the thunder is His call

It echoes for miles and miles

Until all the creation hears

In the whirlwind:

He absolutely adores you