In the Music

Late night and I stay up

the candle is burning low

I’ve been dreaming again

and I catch memories in the music

this song is carrying me back

to how I felt once

I had glimpses of something grand

maybe I lost them for a while

did they fly away on the notes

of the music I stopped listening to?

did they drift out to sea because

I looked away for a second?

It’s like this song brings it all back

and my head is filled with visions again

the music is whispering to me

I feel like a mystery is waking up

All the things I used to dream of

all the wildness I wanted to keep

and let it go in a splash of ink

and strum of a note

and stroke of a pencil

I am drifting back to that place,

to that time

when my eyes were filled with stardust

and I saw something ineffable in ordinary music

ordinary words

and ordinary sounds and smells

and everything made me feel

a way that I haven’t felt in a while

When I was looking and searching

and maybe I found something

wonderfully mysterious

and then let it fade like old ink

I am finding it again, this part of me I forgot

It is coming back

in the music

It’s speaking to me

in the candle’s flame

in the way the wind smells

and in the sound of the rain

I am glimpsing that mystery again