Saturday, July 23, 2016

By Heart

You are the One who knows
everything about me
You are the One who truly
sees me as I was meant to be
You give me breath
You are the air I

I was the princess
trapped in the tower
You were the knight who fought
and died
to free me

And lived again so I could
know You

You know me like no one else
You know every thread
of the fabric of my soul

You have me memorized
every detail
You feel every beat
of my heart

You gently hold me
in Your hand
and You know me
by heart

No one else’s eyes have ever
looked into mine
the way Yours do
everlasting tenderness
Your smile never fades

There’s not a thing I could
ever hide from You
and not a thing I would
ever want to

You know me by heart
and You want
for me to know You
by heart too

I want to know You by heart
I want to know Your heart
to the depths
that You know mine

I hear You calling me in the night
our hearts are meeting
I run to You
You hold me close
I want to see You
I want to know You, I want to know You

By heart

Friday, July 22, 2016

Worth Everything

When she was little
she wore pink sparkly dresses
and sang at the top of her lungs
and danced
and hoped someone would notice.

But no one did.

No one watched her twirl
No one smiled and swooped her up
And told her she was a princess
told her she was daddy’s little girl
told her how beautiful she was.

No one showed her every day
how much she was worth
how precious she was
and she didn’t feel like daddy’s little girl.

When she got older
she stopped singing
she stopped wearing sparkly dresses
instead she wore makeup.

She stopped hoping she’d be daddy’s girl.

She couldn’t hide her confusion
behind a mask of foundation.

Her eyeliner didn’t keep anyone from seeing
the pain lingering in her eyes.

She still didn’t feel beautiful
when she looked in the mirror
she saw brokenness, not beauty.

She didn’t know how valuable she was
and she went after all the boys
because she was desperate
to know she mattered to someone
to anyone
but they didn’t know her worth either
or their own.

They needed her to be what they needed
something she could never be
and they could never be what she needed either
so one by one they broke her heart.

If you looked hard enough
you’d see the shattered pieces
reflected in her gaze
And she still didn’t know
she was beautiful.

If you tell her she is lovely
she will give you that sad smile
and say nothing
but her eyes give her away.

She doesn’t believe you
because you are only one positive voice
that doesn’t stand against the tide
of negative voices
that have lied her whole life
and crushed her soul.

She’s an empty shell
needing something to fill her
but she can’t find it anywhere.

She comes home nights
and cries
until she finally falls asleep.

She wishes she could
change herself
to be valuable
and beautiful.

Little does she know
she already is
that she is worth

Friday, July 15, 2016

What You Want

I wasn’t even looking
But now I see a jewel
Right here in front of me
Shining like a star
Among all the other stones
This one stands out so brightly

Everything I’d hoped for someday
Right here before my eyes
But I whisper a prayer
Father my heart is in chaos
And I want to keep this one
But I want what You want
Your will not mine

Even though my heart longs
Sometimes the tears fall
I know You’re holding me tight
Nothing else compares at all
I put You first and wait
For what You’ll reveal in time

Even though my heart hopes
Father Yours are amazing plans
Whatever my future holds
I will trust Your love
Maybe my hope is Your plan
But no matter what I trust You

Even though sometimes I’m afraid
I know You hold my heart in your palms
And I want what You want
I want Your good plans
Whatever they are

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

Winter's Banishment

Winter crouches over our now barren land
The great trees are weighed with snow
The world is frozen in time
Life's ebb and flow has grown feeble

The clouds swirl over the horizion

As if trying to make up their mind
Whether they should stay
Or leave this empty place
Where nothing lives anymore

The stars are far away specks

The moon is hidden in the night's depths
Snowflakes float and touch the ice
But the seeming peace is deceptive

At first the frozen tensions are not apparent

At first it is impossible to know that our hearts
Are trying to come back to life
Winter has frozen everything

But then you see how the shining ice creaks and cracks

Crying to be released
And under the glittering snow the trees groan 
And bend until they almost snap
Begging to be unburdoned
The wind sings high notes around the mountains
But it is sobbing

Let the winter be over

Bring the dawn of freedom
From the ice that holds us captive
Melt the winter away

The night lingers long

But morning comes
Like a ghost at first, creeping near in paleness
Then the windsong changes to joyful chimes
And then the sunlight bursts forth, parting the clouds
The glorious sun rides the wind
Pink and gold glow into the entire land

The snow begins to melt

Sliding from the trees
They stand upright, reaching for the sunlight
The ice slowly turns liquid 
Until the water ripples clear and blue

And the wind loses its bite

Warm and soft, it ruffles the grass and waves the leaves
The mountains seem to smile
Birds sing in chorus from the forest

Life that was once frozen under winter's iron hand

Has been released
Winter has been banished forever
And every single heart now beats strong again