Midnight

In this darkness before the dawn

The silence is deafening

Wake me from this dream

I know it is not a dream

I cannot sleep again

The clock chimes midnight

I am thirsty

It is so dark

Do you know

How torturous is

Every tick of the clock

In the dead of night?

I want sleep to carry me away

From my anguished thoughts and fears

And the one place I have hidden away

Deep inside my mind

That is where it wanders tonight

And I cannot stop

I cannot stop

Give me relief from this dark night

Tell me dawn will break soon

I want this winter night to end

Please, please end

In the glowing hope of sunrise

I want to fall asleep again

I want to sleep until the break of dawn

When the dark of night

Fades away

I hope it will drag with it

These feelings

Hibernate

I hide under the blanket

In here I can escape the

Outside world

I just want to stay here forever

This blanket is like a

Cozy cocoon

Protecting me from the cold

Winter outside

I'm just gonna curl up in here

And hibernate

You can look for me in a few months

When spring emerges so will I

Until then

I will hibernate

The Alien Creature In My House

In my house there lives 

A creature unnaturally strange

Weird is not strong enough 

A word to describe

Scrambled eggs replaced brains

The zombie faces this thing makes at me 

Are enough to scare even the bravest soul

In the dark

Such a person cannot be from earth

This wonder must be

Of an alien species

Speaking alien tongue

Goober and Wer are the garbled terms

Proceding from its mouth

I cannot imagine how it has survived so long

Without spontaneously combusting

From its own weirdness

O_O

However I must admit that

Somehow despite its head

Being formed of a bubble filled with

Air and scrambled eggs

It sometimes has moments of brilliance

:P

But the thing that I cannot comprehend 

Is that somehow

This alien crept into my house!

And somehow

Disguised itself 

As my 14 year old brother!

I do hope this weirdness is not contageous... 

War Cry

I need to tell you something
I need you to listen to me now
Before you leave this place
You need to know 

They are lying to you.

They are telling you a lie that
Your dreams don't
Matter
A lie

They talk and they talk
And they jab and they jab
And slamming the door 
In your face they tell you

That you are worthless
That you aren't good enough to
Matter

And after a while it starts to sink in
They lie and they lie
They laugh and they laugh 
At you on the ground
And you start to believe them

The false evidence surrounds you
Against the stark white walls
The glare in your eyes at 2 AM
Screams that your life doesn't
Matter

Raging and shouting rings in your ears
You screw your eyes shut
You cover your ears
But you can't hide
There's nowhere to go

Maybe if you fall asleep 
You can escape
Maybe if you turn the music up
The misery will drown

But they forever remind you that
Your life is a book that's wide open
For everyone to read
You have no secrets anymore
They're smeared across the pages

And it breaks my heart to see you
Slumped over, face in your hands
Believing you don't 
Matter

Oh but let me tell you now
The truth
The dangerous truth that
They don't want you to know

Under the screaming
Beneath the din of lies
Open your ears, a voice is 
Calling you to battle

It whispers and whispers
Saying your name
Telling you that you
Do matter

It says
This is not because
There is something wrong with you
It is because there is something dark in them

And you need to understand this now.

Stop listening to the ones lying
Ignore their lies
All they are is
Lies

They scream because 
They don't want you to hear
That soft voice
Because they know this:

If you listen to the voice
You will be dangerous
They are afraid of what you are
What you can be
The power residing 
Within you

The truth is
You are shining bright like a star
In this dark and empty place
You scare them
You threaten the dark
And this is why they lie to you

So don't listen to their screaming
Listen to the soft voice telling you that
You are a danger to the dark
It cannot stand against you
You more than matter

You wear the only armor that
They cannot stand against
Hold your head high with a
War cry
For in this battle you more than matter.

You are vital.

Always and Forever

I take a walk in the forest tonight

Midnight dapples on the leafy floor

Waterfall's icy spray on my face

Everything is a haunting reminder of you.

I'm on my knees

Begging you to do the impossible

To live again

I'm dying inside without you

I'm a shadow without shape.

This emptiness is so heavy

I'm drowning under the weight

Why couldn't I save you?

Why can't I find you now?

Where are you?

I want to hear your voice but all I hear is the wind

Every song I listen to speaks of you

Whispers to my soul that you're gone.

How can you be gone forever?

How is this possible?

When I still see you in my mind and

Still hold you in my heart.

I would give anything to see your face

One more time

I would cross worlds to see your smile

I would do anything just to hold your hand again.

One. More. Time.

Where is the path that leads to you? 

Show me the map I can follow

Show me the road that will lead me

To where you are.

I stand in the moonlight and watch the shadows glide

I imagine that I see an echo of you under the pines

But when I look closer

I see only the shadows.

I cried waterfall tears for so long

In my dreams you sat beside me

In my life you are gone

I must go on without you.

But always, always, always, and forever

I carry you with me inside my heart.

When you miss one who is gone... 

Big hugs to those missing someone right now.

Wild Music

I hope you find me

When you walk through the forest

I hope you hear me calling in the wind

Among the trees

I'm whispering your name

And I hope when you see the sun going down

You think of me because

You don't want me to go down either

I'm whispering your name in the dark

I hope you look for me

When it rains, look for me in the storm

Let's dance in the rain

Who cares if it's a thunderstorm

I hear wild music in the roar

When the tsunami hits

I hope you look for me then

Grab your surfboard, let's ride the waves

If we die, let's die together

When you're on your hands and knees in the mud

When you can't think straight anymore

I hope you think of me

And I hope somehow it helps you get back on your feet

Something is missing without you

I feel it in my soul

Until we find each other

I won't be whole

The band is striking up

The beat is pulsing fast

Life is racing in my blood

I feel so alive tonight

I'm going cliff jumping

At sunset

Over a shark-filled sea

Birds wheeling overhead

They're screaming our names

Come find me

Together, you and me

Let's scribble our own lyrics and run

For the highest sunset cliff and there

Let's play wild music 

I was listening to my favorite music, feeling the wind blowing gently in through my window, and musing about how life is an adventure... and suddenly came the urge to write, so I did; and it felt incredible. It was one of those moments when you just feel so alive. *deep sigh*

Frozen Heartbeat

A blizzard struck me
As I was reaching for a peak
Alone on the mountain face
Exposed to the fury of the storm
I got lost in the whirlwind

It beat me against the rocks
It ripped away my coat
And drove splinters of ice
Into my chest

When the winds died down
I was nothing but a frostbitten shape
Frozen to the mountainside
And inside my chest
Around my heart
Lodged a block of ice

They found me wedged between the rocks
With effort they dragged me out
Lifting me to their shoulders
They carried me down to the valley

But even the roaring fire
As I collapsed on the hearth
Couldn't pierce the block of ice
That had claimed my heart 

So they gave up and left me
Alone with my frozen heartbeat
And over the course of years
Time taught me to get used 
To feeling numb

But one day the door opened
And you came into the room
You touched my block of ice
Like a warm summer breeze

But burning pain seared inside
Worse than the storm I'd endured
As the ice began to thaw
Until I screamed at you to let me go

But you placed your hand over my heart
I struggled as you 
Forced the ice to melt
Then I felt an unfamiliar pulse within

And my heartbeat came to life again

Into Forever

We'd never been that close 

So I didn't know why I kept finding

Pieces of you in the back of my mind and

It drove me crazy

But one day we met again

It was my darkest hour and when no one else

Was here

You were

I was drowning in this ocean and I had to

Turn to you 

The walls came tumbling down

And I showed you the secret parts

Of my soul that no one else

Had ever seen

I was open, like a wound

I had to trust you like I'd never trusted

Anyone else

You weren't the one I'd have chosen

But you were the only one who was here

So I told you my secrets and I

Closed my eyes and waited for you to

Push me away

But you aren't that type

You aren't that type at all

Leaning close you whispered in my ear

That it will be okay and you

Promised that

If I asked

You would never leave me

And my eyes opened to a face

I'd never seen before

I saw you in a different way

And I knew you were

The only one for me

For the rest of my life

When I'm lost in the driving rain

I cling to the sound of your voice

And when I'm sad and sinking

Your contagious laugh draws me to the surface

You look at me with a look in your eyes

Like no one ever has before

Like you cannot go into forever

Without me by your side

I didn't know someone like you

Existed

I don't want this moment to ever end

Make time stand forever still 

I dreamed last night and I thought it was real

When I woke I was afraid you were gone

But here you were 

Beside me where you said you'd always stay

Forever

Shooting Star

You left my universe behind
Disappeared into the Milky Way
Scattering stars in your wake
You shot like a comet through space

I'm racing on your fiery tail
I've got a fast ship
I'm following you
To the ends of outer space

Because you're the shooting star
The fell from my sky
Left a black hole
Where you used to be

But I lost your trail
Somewhere in the void beyond the sun
In the darkness of outer space
I saw a glow emanating 
From the cold face of the moon

On the craggy surface
In the valley of a crater
I discovered your empty footsteps
In the moondust

You've led me on a star-crossed chase
Across this lonely expanse
I'd follow you through a million galaxies
And now I'm catching up to you

I can see you're burning out
Running out of time
I won't stop until I've found you
And when you plumet out of orbit

I promise I will catch you in my palm

Stardust

I've been dreaming dreams at night
Of things I didn't know I held inside
The rhythms of my heart are beating out
An unfamiliar tune

I longed for the moon but then I saw the stars
Suddenly they were brighter 
Than anything I'd ever seen
And I got stardust in my eyes...

The scales started tipping
In a direction unforseen
And before I knew what happened
I grew a pair of wings

Tonight I'll fly off toward the stars
In the vast galaxies
Who knows what I may find out there
In the stardust

Bloom Again

There's a hole in her heart

And she's trying to hide it

But all the bars she sets in stone

Won't make it stop growing

Sunrises and sunsets

Cold air and wind

Life like a flower

She sees her life reflected

In the frosted window

She wished she hadn't constructed

These rock-hard walls

But her file's too small

To saw through the bars

She's dreaming

Of the life she used to love

The life that floated away

Down the river...

But time will bring life back

To her

If she waits for awhile

Flowers dead will start to bloom again

Queen

She is locked in a prison
That is hers alone
A fortress she built
With her own bleeding hands

She chained up her hopes 
Her dreams
Dropping the key into
The depths of her dungeon

Princess, trapped in the tower,
Fight your way free
From this hidious place
Don't give up, my lady
Don't give up

She's Joan of Arc,
She's Boudicca,
She's Zenobia,
Warrior blood 
Runs in her veins

She's a princess, born to fight
As only a princess can
And this is how she's 
Becoming a queen

Erase

Spring rain wakes me up

With a pen in my hand

I've been dreaming of art

But suddenly I see

Pictures I long to erase

I see it like a movie in my head

I close my eyes but it lingers here

Like an ungrateful dream

And my eyes blur with tears

I've hurled axes of spite

And spears of my hurt

Cut with daggers of anger

And swords with all of my might

I once read a book of fine verse

But then I scribbled the pages

'Til the verses were lost

Under resentful lines

Of drawings much worse

I loosed arrows of scorn

I was so blind but my aim

Was surprisingly true

And when I opened my eyes

All the pages were torn

There's an ache in my skull

From all the thoughts

I have thought

All the times I have judged

When I so knew not

And the taste in my mouth

Is of poison and pain

From the things that I've said

Words that don't wash away

In this cool spring rain

Because the ink never dries

It smears on the page

Some hearts are forever changed

By the slice of those blades

And the echoes of shouts never fade

I walked paths in gardens but

I withered the rose

And trampled the delicate fern

Wish I could undo the marks of those blows

Wish I could sew up those wounds

Pluck out deadly arrows

I keep wishing I had a way to

Make innocence regrow

I listen to the rain as I wait for the dawn

Midnight lingers forever it seems

But tomorrow I'll attempt to erase

The ugly lines I have drawn