Monday, January 4, 2016


Of being a survivor...

Yes, I feel pain
but that is because I am not numb.

I have cracks
but that's how the light trickles in.

I am broken
but I am not crushed.

I am missing pieces of my heart
but that is because I have loved.

I have nightmares
and that is because I have experienced fear
and yes, I am terrified of losing,
but that is because I have a reason to care.

I have cried myself to sleep
but I have also laughed until I cried.

I have a past
but that means I have a future too.

No, I am not perfect
and I'm actually kinda messed up.

I have bullet holes
but all the scars I'm covered in
are the proof
I have survived battles.

I feel pain because I am real
I can laugh because

I am still alive.


  1. I'm blessed to call you family and proud to call you a friend.

    This is amazing, Jess. I love it, and you, a whole lot.

    1. Jay, that means more to me than I can possibly put into words. Thank you. I love you, too.